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Comment by Tina on July 29, 2008 at 6:06am

G'morning Helga ..yes we do have to show strengh, but dont every forget to show your weak side too..let them see that it's not easy for , the magic is to fight TOGETHER and share laughter and tears..well the tear part not as much as we do cry , but always being strong and hide it will kick you over the edge ..
I would be wondering that something is wrong if their would be no tears at all..man , woman or child .They clean the soul big times..I need the strengh..to deal with the moodswings or finding answers to her questions etc etc ..oh well noone said life is easy and it made me to that what I'm today ..so it cant be to bad LOL..thanks for taking some time to be here!

Comment by Tina on July 28, 2008 at 2:02pm

Thank you so much and good to see you Mike , I hope you still taking it easy my friend !!
Yes that was mum in 87 lol..
That lil brat was screaming on the top of her voice for the first 3 mounth and looking at my haircut I guess you could see I never made it to hairdresser, so it was a ohhh dang job , but had to be done cause I couldn't see out of my eyes lolol...trust me I could see for a long time after this cut hahahahaha

Comment by Tina on July 28, 2008 at 1:58pm

Yes Lori, I understand completly..I read a lot here on the page and sometimes I'm just lost of words , so I dont say anything, befor I might say something and upset the person..I lost dad befor she got sick and Mum during her sickness..I know it would have broke my mums heart if she knew . Guess it was meant to be that she develope a slight demenze in Carinas worse state and I lived my life like a actress on stage at the time but I was able to hide it from mum..Maybe some think thats wrong , but at the time I knew it would have broken mums heart and as she had massive heartproblems I just didn't want to take this risk..
I'm sure now as my Guardian Angel she will understand why I done it this way..

I'm so glad your son went thru this safely and yes those hrs you wait for them to recover turn into yrs.. Carina needs a stentchange ( she has one beside her liver, for her gallfluid) which gets changed every 2-3 mounth. time befor last her thrombose was very low thru the kemo..they had to do 3 attempts over 4 days to get one in, cause on the first 2 she started to bleed inside and they couldn't stop it....they pumped about 6 bags of blood and 4 with plasma into her.. I think , looking back I aged 10 yrs in this 4 days ..
On the 11 of August we go back for MRI and the stentchange and the fear will be their again.
But thats what Mums are for to be strong and pull them thru ( and might kick some butts in the hospital, if they screw up lol )
Thanks so much taking some time for me ...smiles

Comment by Mike on July 28, 2008 at 12:23pm

Aweee Bless her heart.. you are right One Day.. Is that mom way back in 1987?? ;)

Tina you will be in my prayers and i knwo god will watch over you and your family ,,

God bless

Comment by Tina on July 28, 2008 at 11:11am

I made this for her the night she had her big surgery and we was still hoping they could removed the tumor, but even 5 yrs later this is not possible, without risking her life. If that will ever be the case we would have to go to Miami where they have THI Liver specialist working..but her papers and MRI are all their and even they say to big to be removed now .
One Day ......smiles..